…. trying to come out!
We switched things up a bit. I “slept” from midnight to 03.00 and will now be on watch. I’m now rocking back and forth slowly and moving fire ward at 4 kn. I wait to see if wind will pick up or shake out the Genoa a bit! I wait as my journey includes slowing things down and finding space to just be. No timeframe, coconuts will not go bad and Sarantium is built for stability and needs to be loved, not pushed.
It’s dark tonight, as I move away from shore, substantial clouds fill in. Early last night, while sleeping in the cockpit, I felt rain. This is the first rain I’ve had since June! Come to think of it, it’s the first real cloud I’ve seen since June.
I’m in-between books. I’ve checked radar. I’ve stood up and looked around. I’ve looked around the cockpit for fish. Two. Dead and now part of the food cycle. I find myself scrolling through old photos of family around the fireplace, in the woods and close friends on mountain bikes, on skis and kayaks! I miss parts of that life, and remind myself that life for me is about continuous growth. The wind picks up and I must go with it. There is so much out there and I want more.
Some say, a house and home creates stability. I agree that we all need a space to go to for stability. However, the more I move through this journey, I realize that stability is within me and it always was, I just never realized. I would feel grounded when I would return home after a long day at work or return home from a trip. But reflecting now, stability was always within me. It was all the running around chasing activity and engagements that made me feel grounded only at home. Now, I feel grounded and stability is always present. Seems strange, don’t you think, considering I’m floating around in the middle of Pacific Ocean, in some fiberglass!
These long nights lends itself to rambling on …
Thanks for reading and thanks for writing. I read and reread your emails, comments and messages in whatever shape or form.
It’s time stand up look around and then close my eyes for a bit.
I slept well! We had very little wind early morning so I jumped in for a swim! Lovely! Two cups of coffee and wind picked up! We are sailing south again!
At 09.00: N14*54.627 W119*56.54
COG: 174 SOG: 5.5 kn, NE winds
Mostly sunny, 4-5 ft waves (4-5 sec apart)
Out!
Sailaway Sarantium 
Aha! NOW we are getting a glimpse into how your view of the world is changing, and I love it!
I have heard this from other sailors too, who have gone on these long passages. They say it takes them about a week or so to ‘mentally detox’ from all the hooks and chains and worries that were connected to their land-based lives, and to simply let it all float away and become fully present where they are right now …
So for me, this is your best post yet, a view into your world out there and how ones’ perspective on life and the world changes, as you travel deeper into the solitude of this amazing journey that you are on. I am fascinated and in many ways envious, by it all …
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PS: A pity about the flying fish, did they go into the sea or into the pan? 😄
Good to see that you have the weather routing set up, how are you going to choose which line to take – is it ‘eeny, meeny, miny, moe’ or a slightly more sophisticated method? 😅
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Every morning I wake up to stiff fish around the boat! This morning it was under my pillow!
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Ole dole doff kinkel Arne hoff
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I’m starting to see how toxic the societal structures really are… we truly don’t know until we escape it all😔 I wish I could have shared this experience with my children …
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Listened to your interview on Paul Trammel’s Sailing Podcast, what an incredible journey! Crossing the Pacific is no small feat, and reading about your experience is both inspiring and humbling. The mix of adventure, challenge, and serenity really comes through in your writing. Loved hearing about the wildlife encounters and your reflections during those long days at sea. Can’t wait to read more—safe travels and fair winds!
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Thank you! It’s been amazing so far! I’m getting closer to the itcz!
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You still can – invite them to come and do a passage with you! That is what I am planning to do, convince them to come and join me on a Bucket List once-in-a-lifetime trip with their papa. And if my kids tell me “Sorry Dad, we’re too busy”, then I will threaten withholding inheritance from them 😁 Oh, wait, they already got that. 😳 Oh well, I’ll find another way to bribe them, because I know that when they get out there and spend a week amongst beautiful islands, swimming, diving, and nature, they will get the bug 🏝️⛵️🤿
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Haha! Yes it would be amazing to sail with them!!!!
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I was planning on spending every cent on Sarantium!
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